Dreams to Reality Chronicles: May 2013

Thursday, May 16, 2013

March Against Monsanto ! World Event Schedule for May 25th 2013 ! Please...

Thursday, May 16th 2013, 8:30am

I'm really starting to see how EVERYTHING DOES HAPPEN FOR A REASON and WE ATTRACT EXACTLY WHAT WE NEED .....(if we ask that is, sometimes people would rather dwell in their state of misery....hhhmmm not me! :)) So anyway my point is, I'm feeling really blessed in my life right now....Financially I'm still struggling, a "starving", though I'm not technically starving, so I could say "struggling" but anyway, who isn't in this country right now....or this planet I should say.....

What I'm seeing more and more is how regardless of the circumstance or situation I somehow KNOW inside that this is ONLY temporary and everything will all work out because I have a plan. Baby Steps, Dont freak over the stuff I can't control right now...."IT IS what IT IS"....acceptance is HUGE. We muck things all up b/c we tend to get all caught up in the Emotion of it all, Emotion only exists in the EGO however though so if we can learn how to NOT allow our feelings to manifest themselves into actions ect....I think you get my point.

I'm just thankful because I was in a very dark place not to long ago and just recently I began praying and asking "the air"(literally I would talk into thin air)... to show me a sign that I was in the right state at least for now and that everything would be okay..... and I always believed in a divine creator and I do refer to it as my GOD, but at this time I was questioning the details of what I believed......anyway....about a month or so later I received my sign loud and clear.....

On my way to record with these 2 guys I had never met before I received what I refer to as "my guiding light". I was being asked to sing and work on this project with this "singer" Lets call him "Mike", so Mike heard me singing at the horrible audition I had with the band he had been covering for, "Hard Candy".... that I think I mentioned in my last post "pitch bitch"....so as we are headed there we have to turn onto "Tiffany Rd." before arriving at the home/studio of Gary (the Engineer/Producer) and Eddie(The Lyricist/Musician).
Now it wasn't until I met and got to work with Gary specifically that I realized that all of this is one of those things that really makes you believe there is something behind the scenes watching, driving, helping you and sometimes I almost think it's you being so connected to yourself and your inner power that I asked for help and I provided myself. I mean....I essentially chose to go to that audition, where I met Mike, who called me and asked me to meet Gary/Eddie and sing with him, of which point in time I met my answer to my prayers. Gary believes in me and supports me musically like a father would support his child...(I never had ANY support when it came to making singing a career, I remember being told it was a hobby and to shut up when I would sing in the house, or in the shower growing up, it seemed like my mother resented me for my talent...like I annoyed her....and today.... 20 years later she only texts/calls/keeps in touch for holidays and my birthday...every other day I'm on my own...it's obvious now she never LOVED me and I'm accepting that.. you can see by the difference in the way my sister/brother is treated).....I'm grateful for my Producer Gary though.....he absolutely believes in my gift so much that he has reignited that flame and I'm beginning to really believe in myself, which I just recently realized I never truly did believe in myself. I haven't felt this alive in a longtime. I've written 4 songs so far and laid down 3, this album will be done in no time, I'm auditioning left and right again, and I have one tomorrow that is for a big role so let me tootles.

Doesn't ANYONE listen anymore? I'm SO tired of people. I don't even know where to direct this so I'll just use the term people because it just seems like everyone is "out to lunch"....I have to repeat myself and deal with losers wondering if I'm mad at them or not b/c THEY CAN'T PAY ATTENTION and have self esteem issues and read into stuff WAY too deep? Why should I have to waste time with insecure energy suckers that basically do just that....drain me so I can't get anything done until I get on my lil "secret" weapon, writing, though I'm finding typing is easier on my joints, I think I have carpel tunnel or whatever....anyway.....

I Feel...............Annoyed....I wasted SO much time helping everyone else basically to avoid facing my own stuff, but nonetheless, that is the situation. Now I'm in my 30's and feeling my sharpest mentally as I have really taken a particular interest in my overall well-being and have started listening to binaural beats to decalcify my pineal gland, which has been all blocked up from the flouride I've ingested over the years, look it up, anywayas I have started to feel better and feel more connected to myself, I realize I need to relocate more than ever....the people I'm surrounded with are straight up STUPID....most people don't take the time to do this stuff to better themselves and they look at what I'm talking about as BS cause where is the information on any of it? Why havent they heard about it? have you ever thought maybe
"they" didnt want you to hear about it? thats why prior to 1995 all information had been destroyed....hhhhmmmm interesting....We are so powerful but the pharmaceuticals make us weak and broken and dependant.....Being dependant and a slave to a system is no fun and that is where we are headed.....just a few more years mark my words, the end is near.....we need to stop being cuaght up in our EGO's and start paying the ________ attention!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

May 4th 2013

Happy Birthday to me! I just can't get over how much I DO NOT feel like I'm in my early 30's at all! High School and College seem like only a few years ago, rather than 20! God, I feel old when I think of it that way.....anyway....when looking at the ENTIRE picture....I think I did okay for myself considering.....I mean how many people can say they have been through the kind of stuff I have and aren't on any prescription meds, or drugs, or better yet straight "nutz"...It's interesting to me really....everything I've learned....I'm grateful today.... more than any other feeling, grateful is where I'm at today.

Are there things I'd change today if I could? Sure. Just for fun....this is what I WOULD change if I could change ANYTHING I wanted:

1. I would gain the ability to bear a child naturally and experience motherhood first hand.

2. I would make it so everyone would travel by horse and buggy, and get rid of ALL the cars...if you have to travel long distances then you would take the train or bus, but no more cars.....everyone lives, eats, consumes locally and when they need to travel only then do they need to worry about taking public transportation. This would bring back humanity's appreciation for animals, as we would be depending on them for something other than a food source and vice/verse, the way nature intended us to work together AND we would stop polluting our atmosphere so much b/c we wouldn't need as much gas ect.

3. Everyone would be required to farm and contribute to their community by setting up a bartering contract with a neighbor, so everyone is able to get a variety of meat, veggies, & potatoes. Ex: I would grow potatoes, while my neighbor grows corn, then we would trade each other.

4. Cannabis would be legal and nicotine, alcohol, sodium fluoride, ammonium oxide, and any other chemical or non plantlike substances used or fed to the general public would be BANNED and any person found with would be punished and or fined.

5. Meditation, Yoga, and any other exercises used to de-calcify the pineal gland will be required to do, until your pineal gland excretes DMT on a regular basis. Each individual must share in the experience of attaining enlightenment!

To Be Continued......