So tired of being a "starving artist".....

I truly am having the worst time finding work as an actress, singer, model, writer, whatever....I wear many hats and am working p/t right now for minimum wage, and I went to college!  I live in the New England area and I feel driven to re-locate just to survive.  To make matters worse, my very owm childhood friend and cousin is airing her reality show Oct. 23rd, her mother (my aunt by marriage) contacted me about a month ago and acted as if she and my cousin had been trying to find me for years but the one thing I don't understand is why after talking to me neither of them acts as if they even want to catch up with me...and I expressed my struggle and after knowing I am struggling, knowing I do extra work to make ends meet, (am SAG eligible but haven't been able to pay the dues)....basically what I am confused about is why my aunt would call me to tell me how my cousin hired extras to work on her show and why she wouldn't think of me....better yet I've tried so hard to get in touch with them and catch up before I move and feel as though I am a bother b/c I still have yet to talk to my own cousin, with whom I never thought would take so long to call me back, or would have her assistant answer my texts instead of just contacting me herself.  Does she forget who we were to eachother, the stuff we have been through? Am I to assume I am the only one who cares about valuing a friendship....?  I truly feel that everyone's moment is theirs and I just don't understand why I feel like I am being pushed away.

If you want something done, you better do it yourself...

I have drawn the conclusion that people are self serving and only think the way THEY want to think.  They are stubborn and refuse to see another way, an easier way, a more helpful way...a way that makes more sense.  Just stick to the same routine....cause that got ya so far, right?  I guess I am a little frustrated.

I am getting too old myself to have another "pointless" or "Empty" friendship. The people I choose to be in my life unconditionally deserve to be here because of what I see them. Light. Purity. Goodness. Kindness. Compassionate. Understanding. Ambitious. Driven. Positive and most importantly Forgiving.

I am getting too old myself to have another "pointless" or "Empty" friendship. The people I choose to be in my life unconditionally deserve to be here because of what I see in them. Light. Purity. Goodness. Kindness. Compassionate. Understanding. Ambitious. Driven. Positive and most importantly Forgiving. Sure I see the good in everyone but lately I see alot more than I would care to.  Most people are self serving and don't have a clue what it is to really love and care about another person.  I feel pretty lonely most of the time because I just don't see "love" when I look into the world.  Is there anyone out there that feels this way? 

I would like to take a minute to mention that if you are friends with someone and you happen to lose touch with them over the years and then you re-connect.....this I feel is one of the truest tests of friendship.  A good friend of mine told me that you have to "trust the friendship" when your trying to balance the relationships in your life with what your accomplishing in your life....I myself like this phrase because I feel it is SO true. 

Believing in something is all you need to do......I believe I am MEANT to sing, so I'm doing what I can to put that out there.  I'm not trying to be rich and famous, I just want to make a difference in this world.  I feel to be rich is not to have money but to be rich internally is more valuable than any amount of money.  I want the chance to share this with the world, to reach millions of people at once and while they are listening to tell them just what I have learned.  Trust Yourself.  Treat EVERYONE with love and kindness and if someone continues to hurt you than pray for them but DO NOT remain their punching bag....and that our thoughts REALLY DO become our reality.  So purify your thoughts people.....and NEVER stop believing!

Shout out to my cousin and childhood/teenage best friend Katie Boyd also.  She is living proof that you can attract just what you want in life if you work hard enough.....at her young age she has managed to touch the lives of so many women by assisting them on their road to physical fitness (she owns a gym in Wellesley,MA)....when we were kids I remember leaving Gold's Gym (she taught me almost all I know about working out) and her saying "I am going to own my own gym one day!" Now she does, and not just that but by her following her passion in life she has attracted so much more! She now is finishing the filming of her very own reality TV show that will air Oct. 23rd on the style channel at 9pm. The show is called "Wicked Fit" by the way.  This proves my belief to be true that if you follow your divine path and believe in your dreams the universe will just give you so much back in return, hence the fact that a girl from Taunton Massachusetts who had a dream is now living that dream.  I am very lucky to see this happening.....it is a very inspiring moment in my life!  (I am very excited to be working with Ryan Reynolds in the Film RIPD...thank you!)
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So there was an open call yesterday for the new Kevin James Film, they were looking for actors to play teenagers, I know this was a stretch for me to look like a 16-17 year old but then again I did do a pretty decent job because the casting director (one of them) remembered me pre-hysterectomy and broken foot that is, and commented on how "young" I looked. as usual I worked myself up into a frenzy for nothing because we literally were pulled into the room and told to line up, a few words were spoken, and we were told "we'll be in touch". On the upside I'm sure there will be some extra work available, and I usually get that, but honestly I'm more than an extra. I have so much more to offer just haven't had the chance to really shine I guess. I mean, the first and only speaking role I've ever been considered for was on the soon to come Anna Farris film "What's your Number", I got a call and they asked if I'd be interested in auditioning to read opposite Anna in a scene where she walks in to find me "topless" and leaving her fiance's apartment after just sleeping with him. I got there but had car trouble on the way, so I was late, and I read opposite a camera, it was awkward and I never did get a call back for that film..... My fingers are crossed for an opportunity to get a CB for this last audition because I'm dying to just work again. A movie set, a stage, a photography studio, performance areas....they all feel like home to me. check out the lil video from yesterday......

Quick thought....

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So okay I'm finally SAG Eligible but in order to get the card it's like $2,200.00, and I am a "struggling actress", it took so much just to get the eligibility (two years of looking for work and going on countless auditions), and then they send you this congratulations letter welcoming you to the "Elite" Screen Actors Guild Union, but you have to pay to play as they say. I know it will be worth it in the long run, I just honestly can't afford it. After having this horrible past year and my recent surgeries, I've been unable to work enough to save up that kind of money. I just hope I didn't work up this great momentum working so closely with Ben Affleck, in "The Town" , which I plan on writing a whole post just about that experience because I feel it's DEFINTLY worth sharing, and Adam Sandler and Chris Rock in "Grown Ups", I got to have conversations with Tom Cruise during the filming of the airport scene of "Knight and Day", filmed here in Worcester, Ma, and got to meet some amazing people the Two Years before last and I really hope, dream and pray even though these people I worked with may work with a thousand people a day, that they will still remember me when I make it to L.A. I feel you meet and talk to everyone for a reason and I consider myself blessed to have gotten to speak to such amazing people that are living the dream I dream. I can not wait until the day when I am able to show the whole world what I am capable of. I have to stay positive and on the right path.

until my next impulse to write.....TKS

So this is where my story begins....

I'm a 29 yr old, out of work Singer and Actress, who has just had a hysterectomy.....yeah did I say I was 29?.........and since I've had all sorts of time on my hands I figured I'd join the world of blogging, since I write in a journal anyway, it's sort of the same I guess, except this kind of thing, you know others will read, whereas a journal you can feel safe knowing just your eyes will read it....but then I looked at just how many out there DO blog, so I thought.....I can be just as honest, so I'm going to be. I'm not going to hold back, I want to share the truth about my life, maybe it will help someone out there.....

Today is Valentine's Day. Yup. Period. I can honestly say "Hallmark Holiday" ...."Let's Skip It!"    so like I said I'm 29, no kids, and a live in boyfriend of about 7 yrs.  I had the hysterectomy to rid myself of the burdening immense pain I experienced monthly from endometriosis, not realizing even though I WAS warned I may experience depression from losing all that pain and then realizing that my body will Never carry or bear children sinking in, I sort of "signed out" for awhile

In the end what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.